Sunday, May 31, 2009
Dress to compress
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Keeping it real
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Maybe I should start eating baby powder...
I got my new training schedule from my coach yesterday. Reviewing the summer torturefest she has prescribed for my next 17 weeks of training, I realized the enormity of what I am trying to accomplish. I looked up statistics on how many women qualified at either the A (2:38) or B (2:47) standard for the Olympic Marathon Trials held in 2008: 181 women. How many of them were over the age of 40? 14 women. And that standard was a minute slower. Only 136 (75%) of these women ran a time fast enough to qualify for the new B standard of 2:46. This analysis led me to ask the following question of myself: what in the hell are you thinking?
I start with this in part deux of my weight blog because I think it helps explain why I think the way I do about my weight. It should serve to reassure you that I am not interested in losing weight or changing my body composition to look better. I actually like the way I look and do not think I am fat. My weight management goals are based on my running goals and shaped by the laws of physics.
In fact, I have suffered from bipolar exercise disorder most of my life experiencing manic cycles of jazzercise-like activity followed by depressive cycles of hydroponic butt-farming on the couch. I now understand why this was--my fitness goals were all shaped by a desire to look “fit” rather than a more compelling goal like running in the Olympic marathon trails at age 44.
I take my professional running career (and yes, I think I qualify as a professional runner after the windfall I won in Belgrade though I have yet to see a single Euro from them) pretty seriously. I recognize that lacing up my running shoes daily and running hundreds of miles a week will not get me to my goal. Rather, I have to train like a professional athlete and this involves a certain lifestyle. I see running, both physical and mental strength training, nutrition and weight management as equal factors affecting my fitness and performance (well, the compression socks are vital too). I also recognize that these factors are all interconnected in that an imbalance in one area can ripple out to affect all of the others.
How I lost 5 lbs without trying
Last summer I was traveling in China and Mongolia and ended up on an involuntary form of the Adkins diet. Mutton and cheese were on the menu every day and not a lot of food was provided to me (hmmm...this sounds a lot like Serbia). Our eating schedule was completely whack with breakfast at 6 a.m., lunch around 3 p.m. (with only a ration of the Chinese version of moon pies to eat in between) and dinner generally around 9 p.m though we once ate dinner at midnight. As a result, I ended up losing about 5 pounds during the 3 weeks I was gone and most of this was body fat.
How I kept it off
I decided to start tracking everything I ate using a clever little iPhone application called Absolute Fitness (version 2.1). I was chiefly concerned about my net calorie intake as well as the composition of fat, protein and carbs in my diet. I wanted to try to keep my fat intake low (<20%).>
This plan has worked very well for me mostly because I am capable of exhibiting self-control with my eating (on most days). I do this by reminding myself of my long-term goal of running 2:46 when I am tempted by the entire carrot cake sitting in my kitchen from a friend’s party or by that beautiful In-n-Out burger sign on my way home from a work trip.
I have also become a lot smarter about the foods I eat and their relative nutritional contribution to my diet. I am able to plan my meals before races and workouts using this iPhone application to ensure I have the right proportion of carbs in my diet. I can also see when I have a major calorie deficit and need to bulk up on foods in order to have the energy the next day for my workouts. I hope you can see just how much work this is.
When the program stopped working
After I ran my 2:50 marathon at CIM (btw, did anyone notice that I ran 5 minutes faster at CIM than I did 7 months earlier in Eugene after losing 5 lbs?) I was still slowly losing weight (got down to 126) and feeling great. I was continuing to track what I ate, maintaining the same calorie load and nutritional balance as before. The only thing that really changed was a slight increase in running volume and intensity. In about February, I started noticing that my weight leveled off. I saw this as no big deal because my body fat continued to go down. Then, my weight started going up to about 128 while my body fat continued to go down (about 9-10% right before Belgrade).
You may be thinking right now that I have a bad scale. While this may be true, I'm talking about trends over time rather than daily ups and downs. Though I know the body fat measurement on my scale is not accurate, it is precise in that I weigh myself on it daily at roughly the same time and therefore have the ability to compare the values on a relative basis. There is variation around the mean to be sure, but there is a downward trend in body fat and an upward trend in weight that cannot be disputed. I have the data.
I became pretty discouraged at this point. I was working my butt off (or so I thought) and being so vigilant about my diet. Furthermore, I was lifting no weights and was doing strength workouts similar to what I had done for the last couple of years. What was going on? I don’t know for sure of course but my working hypothesis is simply that I was gaining a whole lot of muscle while I was losing that fat.
I think my body is still transforming into a runner’s body since I am still a relatively new runner. I look at recent pictures of myself in full stride and don’t really recognize my body as my own sometimes (and I don’t want to when the race photographer catches me on the down swing with every percentage point of body fat trending toward the core of the earth).
Where do I go from here?
My wise coach told me to be less concerned about my weight and focus instead on reducing my body fat. As she pointed out, the muscle I am gaining is running specific (except that my brain is also getting gigantic because I’m getting so much smarter) and will only help me be a stronger marathoner despite the additional drag.
Both my weight and body fat have gone up since my long running break coupled with my April tour of the wine, bread, cheese, pasta, and gelato of Italy. I agree with my coach that I can get my body fat even lower than it was before Belgrade for a short period of time. Keeping it that low would be a mistake, but a short foray into the single digits will certainly not hurt my body one bit.
The question is really a psychological one: Can I look at the numbers on the scale and not be disappointed when the weight reads high even if the body fat reads low? I guess I’ll soon find out.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Weight. Weight. Don't tell me.
This is nothing like the NPR quiz show, but it is a game I play with myself. I wake up every morning and weigh myself on my Tanita body fat measuring scale. I talk myself through this procedure trying to assess whether I feel heavy or light and brace myself for the result. I close one eye and peer through a slit in the other eye to see whether the number will come up on the light or heavy side. Lately, I've been disappointed in the result.
Today, I weighed in at a whopping 128.8 lbs. with ~12% body fat. A runner will look at these stats for a 5'5" female and perhaps let out a little gasp. To provide a graphical representation of this phenomenon, I have provided a hypothetical graph (below) of the weight distribution for 100 competitive female runners of my height. As you can clearly see, I show up as an outlier giving the distribution curve a nice positive skew.
I sort of knew that I was a little bigger than most of my female competitors. That is pretty obvious. It was really when I first noticed that the average weight of the entire men’s elite field for any given marathon is lighter than me that I started to realize that my weight might be a factor I should consider as one component in my training to run a faster marathon.
Of course, one can't completely disregard the “Swiss” episode from the 2008 Eugene Marathon. My Mom was at mile marker 18 or so when I came running up the bike trail hot on the tail of the lead female runner. I would pass her while my Mom was watching and take the lead for a few short miles. My Mom was looking for a place to vent her pride and found a gentleman that turned out to be a local running coach standing close by. She told him I was her daughter at which point he glanced at my then 133-pound body and quickly responded that I sure wasn’t built like a marathoner. My Mom replied without batting an eye, “Oh, right. She’s just Swiss.” Not sure what that means, but you get the picture.
So, approximately how much could I shave off of my marathon time by reducing the badonkadonk I’m carrying in my saddlebags? According to the following web calculator (http://www.runningforfitness.org/calc/weighteffect.php), if I became no fitter than I was at CIM last December (where I ran 2:50:22 @ 128 lbs) I could run my goal of 2:46 (given similar conditions yada yada yada) by simply losing 4 pounds. This equates to about 67 seconds for every pound lost over the marathon distance.
This is a big deal and you can probably see why runners are drawn to the fantasy world of weight loss as an “easy” way to become faster. For a runner that is already in the teens on the BMI scale, this approach will most certainly lead to sickness and injury. For someone like me, I doubt that anyone would look at the following statistics--5’5” 124 lbs--and think “bone thin”.
Before I became a runner, I rarely thought about my weight. I actually went through much of my 20s and early 30s thinking that I was immune to weight gain, happily able to *eat whatever I wanted* without gaining an ounce. There's some magic point in mid-life where your brain continues to believe this myth while your body starts developing evidence to the contrary. This came around age 36 for me and was one of the original reasons I started running--to shed some pounds.
Maybe I shouldn’t have been surprised to find out that the amount of attention paid to women who have gained a few extra fat nodules is equaled only by the gossip surrounding those deemed to be “too thin.” We are programmed at a very young age to look for our thinspiration in the world in the headlines plastered across every magazine stocked at the check out counter of the local grocery store. If one of our kind dares to stray out of the tidy distribution of acceptable weight values, they are vilified in this week’s body image news. Case in point: “Tyra Banks Speaks Out About Her Weight: 161 lbs.—I still feel hot” is on the front cover of People this week.
The world of weight gossip is brutal among female runners. So and so was anorexic in utero and needs constant vigilance to ensure she doesn't relapse. This other girl only eats crackers and kale garnish at restaurants and is therefore on the verge of an eating disorder. Yet another always accepts chocolate cake at birthday parties, removes the icing completely and then eats only ¾ of it. She is most definitely on the fast train to ana-mia-ville. Ladies, these things do not go unnoticed! I have seen this first hand and have to admit that I feel uncomfortable talking about my eating habits, weighing behaviors, etc. with some for fear of being labeled binge and purge worthy (though I guess this blog entry sort of makes employing a code-of-silence tactic impossible in the future). I have to ask when did showing self-control when it comes to the food you eat become a sign of an imminent eating disorder?
In my next blog entry, I‘ll tell you how I lost 5 pounds last summer, why I think it had an impact on my running, how I gained some of it back and what I plan to do over the next few months to lose it.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Excuses don't make you any faster...
...but they sure make you feel better some days. I ran the aptly named No Excuses 5k here in Sacramento this morning but only after throwing out and eventually shooting down every possible excuse I could find not to run it.
The rest of my training week went as well as could be expected after the hillfest I had on Tuesday. As predicted, my legs were certainly a lot more sore on Thursday than on Wednesday. On Wednesday, I had to decide whether or not to do my scheduled strength exercises. When it's difficult to even walk, you have to wonder whether it's smart to bring on one legged squats, step ups and squat thrusts. I did it anyway (as well as on Saturday), letting out a little scream with every rep.
Thursday morning, it was difficult to waddle out of bed and out the door for another quality workout. This workout marked the beginning of sprint training for me. Luckily, I had some girlie company for the sprints and they helped take my mind off of the quad sting. I had to go the 15-minute lactate threshold portion of the workout alone. After eating humble pie two weeks ago in a lactate threshold workout where holding 6:07 pace for 25 minutes without stopping was impossible, I was curious about how I would hold up. The main goal was to run the 15 minutes straight without stopping and I almost made it. I stopped at the halfway point for a water break. I held 6:09 pace for this one, so there was really not a lot of improvement over last weekend (where I held 6:11 pace non-stop for 15 minutes during my long run). Given the state of my legs, I was okay with that.
This brings me to today's race. I awoke at 0500 hours with the clunking of the sprinkler system and subsequent whining of my dog Sadie. I then proceeded to lay in bed and ruminate on my options for this day. My legs were still hurting slightly yesterday during my easy 5 miler, but strides felt okay. I asked myself why I was running this race today recognizing that I would not run very fast. In fact, my track record at this race was quite miserable. I have always run a relatively fast marathon 3-5 weeks before running this race and have turned in subpar times. Last year, after running a 2:55 PR at Eugene a few weeks before, I turned in a blistering 19:25 5k at No Excuses. Excuse #1--I ran a marathon a few weeks ago.
As I mulled this over, I realized the primary reason I was running the race today was to get another mark in the age-graded series that I'm enrolled in. You can count 4 short (less than 8k) and 4 long (greater than 10k) races in the series. I was 3rd female overall last year in this same series and did win some prize money. The problem with doing this series is that many of these races conflict with my marathon training (or in this case, recovery). So, I have found myself more than once compromising on a workout or trying to fit a workout within a race to try to maximize my age-graded performance. You might recall me doing this at the Nutrition Fuels Fitness 10k I blogged about last week.
So, there's excuse #2--I'm only doing this for the age-graded points and that's not a good enough reason. At this point, I had convinced myself to abandon the race series and just do a workout today instead. I used the following additional lines of rationale to make my case solid: Excuse #3-- I hate the feeling I get when I run a 5k; Excuse #4--I couldn't even hold 6:09 pace for 15 minutes last week without stopping so I'm certainly going to suck ass today.
I was happy with my decision to not run the race. Within a few minutes, however, I felt a little guilty and started the list of reasons to run the race: 1) I had already paid for my entry, 2) I had to run today anyway, 3) I wanted to watch my friends race, 4) I didn't want to wonder what I could have run had I gone out to the race. That last one was the clincher. So, I decided that I would compromise and do my workout within the race. Why not? Dissin' Genius (MF's rave name) helped me come to this conclusion. I think he had fun watching me throw these excuses (with F-bombs attached) all around the room for about an hour before finally coming to this compromise.
I felt gnarly in the warm up, but that is definitely par for the course. It doesn't seem to phase me anymore. I like to formulate my race goals during my warm up and always have various layers of goals. I'll have a realistic goal, a definitely doable goal, and then a back up "in case I fall completely apart" goal. Today's goals were now set: first, keep each mile as close to 6 minute pace as possible; second, do the whole race at a comfortable effort that left me only feeling slightly taxed at the end (this would be my measure of maintaining LT effort); and finally, beat last year's time (19:25).
I lined up a little behind the starting line because I didn't want to get sucked out too fast. About 300 meters into it I passed many of the 12-14 year olds that had gone out at 4:25 pace and were now heaving on the sides of the road. By the first mile marker, I was at a surprising but comfortable pace (5:48) and more importantly an effort that I felt I could hold for the rest of the race. I had a nice group to run with, which was great. I loved running next to DA, a Fleet Feet racer, who had on the sweetest blue terry cloth head band I've seen in a long time (BTW, DA, you do know it's too late to jazzercise, right? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_kn7-wYzdZo). He held a great pace, and we were able to work together the whole race. Mile 2 was around 5:48 as well, but I think the mile marker was a little short. I failed to hit my lap button at the 3 mile marker, but I know I slowed that third mile. My Garmin showed me running a 5:58 pace for the last 1.11 miles of the race.
I was pumped. I just ran 3.1 miles in 18:26, a 5:56 pace. As a bonus, I didn't have to stop and it actually felt easier than the 6:07-6:11 pace I had been doing in my training runs the 2 weeks before. My goal LT pace right now is 5:55-6:00, so I feel quite ready to start hitting that regularly and have it feel like it should in the next 4-6 weeks.
In the end I was glad that I had run this race. I enjoyed watching everyone run their own races, competing against their competitors' statistically-calculated performances rather than the race clock. Instead of the extreme confidence sinker I had predicted it would be, it helped me to see that I am on the road to recovery. It also restored my confidence in my ability to run an adequate albeit not excuse-free race at the No Excuses 5k. I guess the third year is a charm.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Dealing with DOMS
I have a really cool job. I get to visit some of the most interesting and strikingly beautiful places in the country. These places harbor some of the rarest species on the planet and my job is to help figure out how to protect them from imminent destruction. You’ll be happy to know that most times we succeed in this effort. If we were losing battles left and right, I’m pretty sure my job would not be as cool.
This week I was called upon to tend to some important science matters on a property The Nature Conservancy just purchased near Mt. Shasta. As you can see from the picture, it has a lovely view of the mountain. It also has critical coldwater springs that are key to the survival of some highly threatened salmon runs.
Originally, I had planned to do this week’s killer hill run, scheduled for Tuesday, on the treadmill when I returned on Wednesday since it’s impossible to find a convenient 30-minute uphill climb here in the Valley. I keep telling my coach this in hopes that hill workouts will mercifully disappear from my routine. Does she not get that you can see the immense flatness of the Great Central Valley from space? She lives in Montana and is a National Mountain Running Champion. I think the hill workouts are here to stay.
With this new wrinkle thrown into my schedule for the week, I started researching hill options out of Mt. Shasta City. Of course there were plenty of roads leading straight uphill there, and I was excited about the prospect of actually doing this workout outside breathing in the beautiful mountain air. When I arrived at our TNC office in Mt. Shasta, I consulted one of my colleagues who lives in town, is a runner and is very fit. I asked about my hill options, and she told me that the one I was looking at would be a great option. She said it was a Forest Service Road that had a nice, gradual, but consistent grade. It was paved, but had no traffic. It sounded absolutely ideal.
We took a tour of the new property on Monday afternoon. It was a beautiful hike. Well, it was fine until my poor choice in footwear created two nickel-sized blisters on the backs of both feet—OUCH! The tour ended around 8:00 and I was famished having not eaten since noon. I started flashing back to my hunger fest in Belgrade. I got a big fat burger, garlic fries and downed two beers in record time at a local bar called the Billy Goat Tavern. I took my happy, drunken self to my hotel room to try to rest up for an early-morning run.
I rolled out of bed and threw on my running clothes, GPS and shoes after gingerly covering my newly acquired blisters with band-aids. I screamed a tiny scream every time I took a step. I then strapped a water bottle pack around my hips. I never wear these torture devices, but I thought it might come in handy on this run. Let me say that I have never found a water bottle and holder that fits my body aside from one I can carry in my hand. I’m convinced that they just can’t make these for women. The pack inevitably starts out in the right place, on my hips, and within a few shakity shakes, shimmies up my hips to become a hula-hoop around my waist. If I cinch it at the waist, I find myself unable to breath. I ran back to my hotel after about 10 minutes and chucked the damn thing in my room.
I found my hill road after ditching my pack and started up the hill at lactate threshold (LT) effort. The hill was mild at this point and I felt like a rock star. I was doing 6:45-7:00 pace steady and having fun. Then, I turned a corner and saw the real hill. Wow. I was facing about a consistent 7-8% grade. I kept going and my pace slowed. It then dawned on me as I was sucking wind in a major way that I was at altitude and was probably going to start suffering much worse as I climbed higher.
I surrendered after about 5 minutes into this climb, having gone out too fast. Damn. I really wanted to try to do this one without stopping. I caught my breath for a few seconds, tried to forget that I had 25 more minutes of climbing ahead of me and took off again. Like my LT effort run last week, I couldn’t seem to slow this one down enough so that I didn’t have to take a break. The hill seemed to get steeper as I climbed and of course the air became thinner as I approached 5000 feet. To my mountain goat friends, that doesn’t seem that high. To a sea-level puke like me, it might as well have been Mount Everest.
As I got to around 20 minutes, I started negotiating with myself. I knew that the workout as written called for 25-30 minutes and I thought about stopping at 25 to head back down the hill. I propose such things to myself quite often while running, but I never take myself up on them. I always max out my workouts whether it’s the number of reps, the mileage, or the pace. No matter how painful it feels, I know that I will feel a lot worse shortening my workout than pushing through the discomfort and finishing the whole thing. No excuses. I actually came up with a mantra that I like to use: excuses don’t make you faster. Damn straight.
Each time I stopped, I thought I heard chipmunks mocking me. I just flipped them off and kept chugging up the hill. I finally got to 30 minutes and realized I had an “easy jog down” to deal with. I have a long and rich history of trashing my quadriceps on down hills like this. There was no way to avoid the fact that I would do damage. How do you run down an 8% grade hill without trashing your legs? I just went with it and enjoyed the ride. I ended up climbing about 1800 feet for the whole 10+ mile run with 1300 of it in those 30 minutes over ~3.7 miles.
I was so preoccupied with the hills that I had forgotten what the rest of this workout was supposed to include. So, I invented something. I did 5 x 1 minute at 5k effort with 1 minute jog rests. This was tough after the down hills, but I actually felt okay. Then, I had a few cut downs to whip out and I was done.
Thinking back on the workout I am disappointed that I couldn’t pull the whole uphill off without stopping. I do believe that the setting made the workout too tough to actually accomplish in one long run (unless I was half billy goat like my coach). I am pleased with myself for sticking it out and doing the whole 30 minutes. I could have easily completed the whole thing without stopping on a treadmill, but I wouldn’t have had nearly as interesting a story to tell, now would I?
DOMS (delayed onset muscle soreness) has set in today, but not nearly as badly as I expected. My easy run this morning was not as painful as I would have predicted. However, it’s always the second-day-post quad trashing that is the worst. I‘m looking forward to another tough workout tomorrow on these hill-ravaged legs. No excuses!
Sunday, May 17, 2009
A small slice of humble pie
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Belgrade--the Race
Welcome to Beograd
The road to Belgrade
So, after a difficult race at MCM followed by a spectacular experience at CIM I realized a lot of what went right and wrong had to do with being able to control my pre-race situation. For CIM, I was viewing the race as a throw away and changed just about everything possible to help me run a fast marathon. The good news is that it all worked! The bad news for me was that I knew I wouldn't have the ability to control my situation in Belgrade and I had to accept that.
Week 1 32/10
Week 2 56/13
Week 6 80/16+4
Week 7 90/20
Week 11 66/16
Week 14 88/18+4
Week 15 80/17
Week 16 64/12